The Psychedelic Era and the Spirit of Free-Form Experimentation in Music

There are a few reasons why people still point to the psychedelic era of music, in the late 1960's, as the halcyon days of experimentation. Many of the most magical, transcendent moments in music, for both performers and audience, occur spontaneously, with maybe only a hint of forethought or sense of direction.

Some musicians understand this and seek to invite this "visitation of the unknown" through free-form experimentation. This bold and risky approach - handing over the reins to the Muse and embracing whatever terrors or wonders She might choose to reveal - reached its initial heyday during that late '60 psychedelic era.

Music Reflecting a New State of Mind

The psychedelic experience in many ways expressed itself most naturally through free-form musical experimentation. Trippers were journeying with fragmented egos, which meant that the facility for attachment to the things of the world, to goal-oriented thinking, was greatly weakened. What else to do, under such circumstances, but dive into the river and let its flow take you?

This turn of consciousness characterized much of the music that was born out of the free-form experimentation of the times. Extended jams banished all sense of time; poetical excursions broke away from the linear world of cause-and-effect; words suggested subjective states of mind rather than concrete movements and events.

Some Standard-Bearers of the Movement

The Grateful Dead forged their early reputation in this way. The Syd-Barrett era Pink Floyd filled such "Underground" London clubs as Middle-Earth and UFO with aural landscapes that often began with mere sketches of song structure - maybe a beginning and ending verse - then filled out with Syd's inspired eruptions of the moment, as the rest of the band struggled to follow his frenzied improvisation.

Jim Morrison probed the new emerging musical landscape with words, sung or recited, adding / removing / rearranging snatches of poetry throughout The Doors' largely free-form sets. This approach culminated in the creation of theatrical epics like The End and When the Music's Over.

The Risk of Failure

Free-form experimentation could lead to a lot of stale ideas and aimless repetition. But it could also potentially shatter the musicians' notions of what music should be, what they were capable of, and how far the audience was willing to let the music take them. In that space of surprise and wonder, a wider world of creative possibilities could be glimpsed and pursued.

My protagonist throughout The Edge of the Known, Brandon Chane, lived by this creative ethic and sought to implement it within his own band. As he says in What Casts the Shadow? :

Only familiar things can be stuffed into the mental category of the “known” and thereby lose their power to move us. When the mind is caught off guard, when it’s confronted by something that it can’t label, then there must be an opening onto direct apprehension. New ideas, sensations and mental landscapes all have a chance to slip through the cracks. Spurred on by this inspiration, I told Tim and Tommy one night during rehearsals that we should have certain songs - or at least, certain movements within our songs - which we never played the same way twice.

“We’ll just create the space for whatever wants to come through in the moment,” I said. “And then we’ve got to run with it - that’s the thing - even if it takes us to some scary places.”

Inviting - and Promoting - the Unknown

Oftentimes, the most powerful art is as much a surprise to the artist as to the beholder. But this can only happen when the space is ready. If too much is planned then the spontaneous fire can't get through.

In Brandon's case, the approach worked in some ways because he was desperate enough to forsake safety and pursue the Muse at all costs. One of his earliest supportive critics wrote:

The band’s manager is off to my right, by the bar, weeping her eyes out at the sight of it all. One cocktail waitress is standing spellbound in the aisle, the forgotten platter of drinks in danger of slipping off of her shoulder. Brandon is soloing majestically behind the wall of his hair one moment and then telling us all about a ladyfriend of his who’d beaten cancer the next. You never know which way this guy is turning. It HAD to be utterly spontaneous; and yet his telepathic bandmates - Tommy Visconti on bass and Carlos Rodriguez on drums - respond to his every mad swerve as if this was all something that they’d rehearsed a dozen times over the night before.

The Aftermath

After the revolutionary fires of the '60s died down, the spontaneous fire found voice in pockets of the punk movement, in the erratic passion of Patti Smith, in the mind-bending free-form musical tapestries of Sonic Youth...

The dream-scapes that lie beneath the thresholds of reason will always seek release. Sometimes they find it; and. if we're really lucky, there will be artists who are awake enough to capture that Presence within their music.

Those tend to be the songs that we remember longest, the songs whose fire is made to endure the world longer than us.

The Language of the Soul

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Those of us who venture out (and in) to the realms of the soul can find ourselves within vast reaches of unexplored territory that is hard to evoke with words. Soul speaks a language that's oftentimes felt rather than heard.

There isn’t the vocabulary in place for all of the subtle feelings and intuitive insights that one can experience in this realm. You’ve got anatomy to provide you with scientific names for all the portions of your physical body; you can learn the technical names for all of your bones and muscles if you have the interest; but where’s the terminology that you can apply to the inner regions of the soul?

Not only that, but what few terms exist aren’t in general usage. They rather belong to specific “schools”; like, if I say The Nagual one must think of Carlos Castaneda; “spacious mind” is a term put forth by Jane Robert's Seth; “Collective Unconscious” was coined by Carl Jung; and yet these can all be (depending upon the circumstances of their usage) descriptions of similar phenomena.

And the essence of such phenomena can’t really be captured with language.

To Evoke rather than Describe

This is where I think the great poets have the right idea, because they use language to evoke experiences that can’t be described. If you're receptive to the poet's words, you may arrive there for yourself and must find your own way of articulating it.

Or you can enjoy the vistas and not worry yourself about setting it down in some kind of form (in antiquity, this was the shaman’s vocation) or communicating it to others (the arena – ideally – of a spiritual teacher of the West).

It will be interesting to see how language might evolve if and when the experience becomes more common among human beings. There will be so many nuances to explore with these newly invented words. I think of the myriad words that Inuit peoples have for "snow"; or, the many ways that desert-dwelling peoples have of describing sand.

And communication will definitely be fostered if the people who explore those realms, serving as pioneers of sorts for the movement, can get over the fearful need to jealously guard their terminology and claim ownership of it.

None of us are really inventing these concepts anyway. What we are doing that is new and unique, though, is learning to live with them within the context of a modern cultural environment the likes of which has never been seen before.

Experiencing universal truths as they apply to one’s unique, individual life; that’s the essence of the soul journey. So the myths tell us, anyway.

Spiritual Braille

In the first Edge of the Known novel, What Casts the Shadow? , Brandon Chane (the conflicted and struggling musician who narrates the tale) describes (among many other things) his songwriting process...

Because he is a visionary creator, there are no road-maps that he can follow to either produce his work or to try and convey it to others. He often feels as if he's groping around in the dark, trying to give form to insights and sensations that there are, as yet, no names for.

They felt like they {the songs} were already “there”, full cloth; I’d sense the faint outlines, sketch them out with some phrases or maybe a chord progression to start with. Slowly, all the pieces were laid into a pre-existing groove. It’s like learning to read a form of spiritual Braille.

The Muse on the Move

An inspired state of mind reminds me of the dreaming state in one crucial respect: No matter how hard you try and revive the memory of it later, that recollection will never be quite as vivid as the original manifestation. I keep a notebook close by, as often as possible: in my backpack when I’m hiking; beside me at the table in a restaurant or café. The Muse tends to visit me when I’m on the move, when the sounds of life are stretching out all around me and new sights are constantly unveiled before my eyes. She tends to get as bored as me when I’m staring at a computer screen or a blank page.

For this reason, my ideal writing environment isn’t any particular place but rather a state of motion. The source of that motion can either be myself (hiking, walking from one errand to the next) or the life around me (the birds and squirrels, the people conversing at the next table over).  Few things lubricate the flow of creative ideas like movement. I think the essence of it is that motion reminds me of the greater human conversation that is happening all around me, all the time; and then I become conscious of the act of writing as my way of joining in that conversation.

It’s as if my thoughts mimic my body’s activities, becoming sedentary when I sit and then tumbling one after the other when I’m on the move. I’ve learned (from the pain of countless great narrative scenes slipped beyond recall) that I’ve got to be prepared to stop and record the moment when that visitation of energy occurs – whether the closest place to sit and jot the words down is a log, a bus stop bench or a picnic table.

There are a lot of activities that can loosen the free-flow of ideas and bring me into contact with that “greater human conversation”. It doesn’t have to be anything as grandiose as a trip to a mountaintop. I might be in the midst of washing dishes when a descriptive paragraph or exchange of dialogue crystallizes in my mind; and then I’ll be running to towel my hands off so I can capture it before it dissipates. It probably works so effortlessly at such times because I’m not standing such strict guard over my own thoughts. Then my consciousness is free to play, and to cook up something tasty for the page.


Silent Knowing Awoke in Me

One night I dreamed that I was in a room in my grandmother’s house, someplace that I’d actually spent many nights when I was young. It belonged to an uncle of mine who, being only eight years older than me, had still been living at home at that time.

It was here in this room, when I was about eleven years old, that the whole trajectory of my life changed forever.

That may sound overly dramatic. For me it’s just simple truth, though, because I so vividly remember. My uncle’s room had often been a powerful stimulus for my imagination. He had all the early Iron Maiden records, for one thing, with their enigmatic pictures of “Eddie” on both front and back – vinyl covers, so you got all the blown up detail.

Those pictures only told so much; they invited my young mind to weave its own stories. My first memories of discovering my own capacity for fantasy revolve around this space.

"Chance" Discovery

One night I was perusing the bookshelf and noticed something that I thought read “The Wonderland”. Like most kids, I was a fan of “Alice”, so this drew my interest. When I pulled it down, though, I saw that I’d misread it. It was, in fact, “The Wounded Land”. {Emphasis mine}

That little discrepancy set off a whirlwind of implications in my mind.

I suddenly realized that this book, for all of its fantastical trappings, was not escapism. It was reflecting a deeper layer of life; of the inside of the world, so to speak .

I discovered that the book was the fourth in Stephen R. Donaldson’s magnificent “The Chronicles of Thomas Covenant the Unbeliever” series. I started reading immediately. My uncle was missing the first novel, “Lord Foul’s Bane”, so I had to begin with the second, “The Illearth War”: Another title rife with implications.

I’ve tried many times over the course of my life to articulate the impact of this upon me, at that tender age. It completely turned all my previous conceptions of story – of what it could touch upon, how deep it could go – on their head.

The magic was real. The Land was real. Of course I knew that on one level it was a “secondary world” that one could read about and escape to for a while. But it was also Covenant’s inner landscape; our inner landscape.

The drama enacted within it personified the forces at work beneath the surface veneer of the world that we all learned to call “the real.”

Background Sketch

Since the novels are fairly well known, I'll provide just a brief description of the premise here. Thomas Covenant's life, as the first trilogy begins, has taken a drastic turn from bright promise to darkness and despair.

Once he had been happily married, a successful novelist; but now that leprosy has begun to ravage him he finds himself surrounded by people who fear and shun him. His wife abandons him and takes their infant son along with her.

In his loneliness and bereavement, Covenant experiences a series of "psychotic episodes" during which he's apparently translated to a vibrant and magical environment known simply (to its wondrous inhabitants) as The Land.

As Within, So Without

For all of its lucid detail, and the searing power and sweep of Donaldson's prose, the crowning achievement of this work, to me, is the underlying sense - which the author never loosens his grip on - that Covenant's entire odyssey within The Land can arguably be taking place inside himself. In a sense he is The Land.

A land is a reflection of the inner state of the beings that inhabit it. From the inside, we each weave the fabric of our physical environment. Exploring our world, we are really journeying through the landscape of ourselves - and discovering ourselves.

As I read this yarn, something – a kind of silent knowing – awoke in me. I was aware of Donaldson’s rare gift to touch upon ‘both worlds’; and I understood that I had this inborn ability too.

I knew in that moment that, to communicate this innate inner understanding through stories, stories that might touch others with the same sense of wonder and intuitive recognition, was unquestionably the one sacred, wondrous and exciting direction of my life.

The question was settled right there and then, in that room on that night. It’s been a journey of more than thirty years, bringing that sensed potential to fruition in the ‘real’ world.

The Love of the Unconscious, Inner Self

No doubt we often struggle to trust one another on this planet. But we seem to experience as much difficulty with trusting our own inner depths. The unconscious, inner self - assuming that we even believe in it at all - can seem like an enemy as often as it does an ally.

Seldom is it perceived as a source of love and support.

Modern Psychology and Humanity's Self-Image

We certainly haven't been taught to trust it. Ever since Sigmund Freud's psychological theories became popular, modern humanity has seen itself as walking around with a very unruly under-story of its own consciousness that contained little more than repressed emotion and 'animalistic' (i.e., 'savage') instincts.

Freud's conception has had as profound an impact upon our cultural thinking as Darwin's theories; and in many ways, it has been just as detrimental to the way that we see ourselves.

Beliefs that Create Blinders

If we believe that our consciousness is constantly besieged by hostile forces 'beneath' it, that we're engaged on some kind of tooth-and-claw competition with each other here on this Earth, that nature is both remote and indifferent... then how can we conceive of our own inner nature as something innately good?

Our conception of love itself can then be reduced to a mere idea that we invented to comfort ourselves in an essentially cold and meaningless universe.

Our beliefs blind us to the reality that the force of love underlies everything in Creation; moving it, growing it, spurring it on to express its unique nature with all the time in Eternity and every kind of support available to it.

Imagine the ways in which the picture of our world could be transformed if humanity, by and large, believed in the love of the 'unconscious' inner self as much as it now believes in a threatening Unconscious and an indifferent Nature.

In the meantime, our distrust can lure us into doubting the guidance of our dreams, the whispers of our intuitive voices - basically, all the support that we could receive from a deeper part of ourselves that is so much more aware and far-seeing than the 'selves' that we consciously identify with.

Seen Through the Eyes of Love...

The inner self is forever loving and infinitely creative. It never gives up on us, not even when we may give up on ourselves. The unconscious inner self is the source of our being, and the essence of our being is love.

We are born out of the exuberance of that inner light which, in its unbounded love of all creative possibilities, generates the endless forms that exist within all Creation so that each may explore their potentials and realize their deepest longings, fulfill the promise of their birth.

Ideas of an accidental universe, of a threatening unconscious, of an unfeeling natural world, camouflage our deep knowledge of this truth and force us to exist in a reality where this boundless love seems not to be.

It's not that the world teaches us to believe in this way; it's that our beliefs teach us to perceive such a world. We can believe differently, and thus enter into a different world, one that more faithfully reflects the loving consciousness that birthed us and, even now, upholds us in every moment.

Natural Magic (with Chopsticks)

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One afternoon I got lunch at a Vietnamese restaurant in town that I’d never visited before. Soon after sitting down, I decided that this was going to be the first meal that I finished using nothing but chopsticks (which I’d performed pretty ineptly with in the past).

This wasn’t the easiest dish to try the experiment with, either, as it consisted of long rice noodles, crushed peanuts, shredded lettuce, carrots and cucumbers shaved thin, and small slices of grilled chicken. I began in my typical fumbling manner. I was determined, though, to meet this challenge that I’d playfully set for myself.

Mid-way through the meal I suddenly realized that I’d spent the last several minutes in a kind of right-brained reverie, just daydreaming as I ate. During this period of time I’d had no trouble with the unfamiliar utensils at all, but had just gone along as easily as if I’d been using a spoon and fork. I was amazed to notice that I’d finished off half of the bowl without thinking about it.

Then, once I did become self-conscious about the action once more, it immediately became more difficult. I had to laugh to myself when I thought about the contrast between this and my previous fluid performance, when I’d managed to forget for a while my belief in my own clumsiness and just let my hands act out of their own natural grace.

In Trust in the Unseen, my protagonist (and narrator) Brandon Chane learns to more deeply trust the natural movements of his being and, in so doing, ends up delivering the most inspired musical performance of his life.

I just drifted along, my mind in a free-floating space. My thoughts could not attach themselves to facts, certainties or expectations. I learned to just appreciate my questions without demanding that they produce answers. And I came to discover that the deeper region of knowing carries its own form of certainty. It just isn’t arrived at through deduction.

I suppose you could compare it to the phenomenon that sportsmen remark about sometimes: Just knowing that you’re going to sink a basket, or bowl a strike, before the ball even leaves your hand. It’s as if the essential thing, the miracle, has already manifested. It just needs to play itself out in the field of time.

That’s how it was when we played Broomstick Belladonna’s a couple days later. {…}

The Academy of Reality Creation

Several times now I’ve dreamed that I’m attending a kind of “reality creation” school or academy. The most recent one took place in a setting that mirrored, in waking life, my ninth grade biology class.

This is where I was first confronted with such ideas as ‘the accidental creation of the universe’; the ‘fact’ that emotions and thoughts were mere by-products of chemical and electromagnetic activity in the brain; where dissection was taught as a method of “seeing what made something live.” And so on.

It was significant, then, that in the dream the “chalkboard” (which resembled the outlay of an online forum, projected onto a wide canvas screen) was set against the back wall. All of the seats were turned to face in this direction. The new conceptions that we were learning, about ourselves and the nature of reality, were turned the opposite way from that of the class I’d once attended in waking life. I chuckled a little at the brilliant aptness of this motif even as I was writing the dream down…

On the Heels of Jack Kerouac

Recently, while preparing for a trip out West to California (my first visit to the state), I packed Jack Kerouac’s On the Road to read over the two bus trips and six flights that constituted my overall journey there and back. What better reading material to accompany one on an excursion  cross-country, right?

I had hoped that Kerouac’s lucid and breathless prose would help immerse me in a Zen-like appreciation of the essence of moments, a state of mind that I find conducive to any kind of adventure, whether it’s one that I’m involved with at my computer while composing another strand of my fiction or out there in the wide world.  All is sacred in the world of On the Roadwhether it’s a casual conversation in a diner or a meditation upon the nature of mortality; and that sacred sense is a good thing to carry around with you, I think, as often as you can grasp and hold onto it.

My sister, her husband and my two nieces live in Oakland, and the second paragraph that I had the opportunity to read from the book – the day after arriving there, during a rare quiet moment – began thus: “In Oakland I had a beer among the bums of a saloon” {…}

Many more ‘coincidences’ were to follow over the course of my week-long visit. Passing Alcatraz on one of our drives, I was reminded of a chapter that I’d read mere days before, wherein Kerouac, out of desperation, works for a few weeks as a cop in some barracks and nicknames one of his co-workers “Alcatraz” because of the man’s overly-zealous attitude towards his job. And while hiking in Muir Woods (where I saw the venerable Redwoods for the first time) we took an escalating trail that eventually brought us to a high vantage point. The next day my sister, having done some online research, said, “You know that part in On the Road where he says that he promised himself he wouldn’t leave San Francisco until he’d climbed that mountain? That was the mountain we were on!”

After so many synchronicities, I finally gave myself over to the evident ‘theme’ of this trip and decided to consciously cooperate with it. Over the weekend we paid a visit to the legendary City Lights Bookstore in S.F.

and, the following day, The Beat Museum.

All in all, it was an essential and sacred pilgrimage, one that fired my mind once again  with passion and fascination for the ways in which ideas can become absorbed by the culture to such an extent that they become living myths. “That store {City Lights} will thrive for so long as its doors stay open,” I observed at one point. “That’s the power of myth.”

This particular myth was founded upon the poetic sensibilities of “first thought, best thought”, of letting Wild Mind run free and unfettered by social conventions or personal insecurities. This was a profound influence for me throughout The Edge of the Known series. In What Casts the Shadow? I paid homage to Kerouac’s exuberant cadences in passages like this one:

I was aching for the sensation of movement. Nothing fires the creative imagination quite like the spectacle of new environs emerging and then vanishing behind: the constant plunge towards the novel moment. Whoever could decipher the pulse of life out there and set it down would be the true poet. It’s not a matter of trying to see the future, of attempting to fix in place what must always be in flux. To the visionary, there is no future to foresee. There is a now of infinite possibilities, and the trick is to be awake for it.

We were just brimming with too much raw energy, enthusiasm and reckless spontaneity to be still any longer. We’d given birth to our songs; and now those songs needed to breathe under wider skies. All my being was focused upon arriving onstage, in some strange town, and letting the Genie out of the bottle. New landscapes, shattered taboos, confrontations with proscribed limits and morality and law… goddamn it, the status quo had always been just too suffocating for me; and now I saw a way to forge my own raw life on my own terms.

Rearranging the Belief Furniture of the Mind

When I’m working at examining and changing my personal beliefs, it helps me a lot if I can conjure up some sort of imaginative image, a symbol to stand in for a particular idea that I’m trying to isolate and confront. Ideas can oftentimes feel intangible. If a certain concept takes the form of (say) a dilapidated nightstand, though, then this piece can be moved, trashed, smashed or burned within the theater of my own inner mind. Such visualization makes the act of manipulating the belief behind the image much more visceral.

Flushing Mental Debris

I recently had a dream that dramatized this process. I was swimming in a long, oval-shaped pond whose waters felt deep and ancient. I was trying to reach the sunnier side, but my progress was confounded by scattered debris floating around in the water. This rubbish mostly took the form of furniture.

At one point I was caught in backwards-moving current that had also begun to pull at the furniture so that the pieces aligned behind one another in a snaky procession towards a whirlpool. I had the visceral sensation of the entire pond being akin to a giant washing machine. At first I feared that I’d be sucked down the ‘drain’.

Distancing Ourselves from Our Beliefs

But I managed to float nearby it while the debris, one by one, was sucked down. I am not my beliefs. That was the underlying message of this dream motif. They belong to me; I do not belong to them. In some ways I associate the waters with my subconscious, and my state of being ‘impervious’ to the pull of the undertow with the freedom that each of us have to distance ourselves from our own beliefs. They do not have to own us. They are ours to nurture or discard.

Once I reached this realization, within the dream, I was able to utter the mental command of “Enough!” and slough off the inertia of these ideas that, I had felt, could pull me under. Armed with the knowledge of my own freedom, I was easily able to swim to the sunnier side of the lake. There, beneath the warm rays, was a new house that was mine. I was able to rest, and then begin a project that was of great importance to me.

Not Being Ruled by Our Ideas

In the novel Trust in the Unseen, Brandon Chane (my protagonist) begins to trust his own insights and intuitions to the point where he’s able to achieve some autonomy apart from his mentor Saul. Until this point he’d been obliged to accept Saul’s guidance as best he could. Now, however, he finds that he can take what he has learned and translate it into his own personal terms; he can own it as earned knowledge.

{…} In time, as the miles raced beneath and behind our wheels, my angst began to subside, to be more fully replaced by a sense of victory – or satisfaction, at least. I’d proved to myself that I was able to act from someplace other than my familiar ‘default’ position. And I began to question how many other assumptions, equally erroneous beliefs, I might be carrying around with me like dusty dead debris in my mind. Saul’s artistry was to lift the stones and expose such skulking creatures. Might I not be capable of the same sort of excavation on my own?

After we stopped at a salad buffet for our first healthy meal thus far on this road trip, and returned (highly caffeinated) to change positions in the van once more, I settled in the back seat with my notebook. While Carlos got us back onto I-80 E and pushed us into Illinois, I began writing down bits of my own internal dialogue whenever I could catch it. If I noticed my imagination tugging me towards feelings of gloom and despair, I tried to identify what I’d been thinking beforehand. I isolated the unspoken assumptions, let them roll around in my head for a while, questioned them. I could feel how my thoughts and emotions were linked. Black moods and rage-filled episodes didn’t just “come over me”. They had always been generated somehow by my own internal monologue.

I felt the kind of excitement that often accompanies the discovery of an unforeseen new way forward. Was this the trail back to the sources of all my misery, frustration and overall dearth of hope? {…}

This is the journey that each of us inevitably have to take if we hope to get on top of our own thoughts and feelings and not be ruled by them. Books and lectures and teachers can only take us so far. At some point we’ll have to interpret it all in our own terms, and realize that, though we may have invested ourselves in our own beliefs, those beliefs don’t constitute who we are – any more than we are defined by the furniture in our physical environment.

Life as a Power Struggle: The Vampire Myth

The Vampire Myth seems to me a natural outgrowth of many of the beliefs that our culture has formed itself around. Collectively, we long ago parted ways with the kind of mystic / shamanic thinking that insists that our energy is forever replenished by a source outside of the physical world.

The (Perceived) Struggle for Energy and Resources

Our popular science depicts a world of finite energy and resources, and envisions human minds and bodies that are born with certain “reserves” that then steadily deteriorate until the point of our deaths.

Given such deeply-ingrained philosophy and conditioning, it’s only natural that we would then perceive life itself as a power struggle, a competition for limited resources. And this is a primary cause of wars and other conflicts in this world.

If there’s no such thing as a Source then we (seemingly) have to derive energy from others somehow. Such beliefs encourage us to behave, essentially, like psychic vampires.

Reflections in Literature

It’s been ages since the initial publication of Bram Stoker’s Dracula, but that novel introduced us to a character whose grip on the collective psyche is as strong now as it ever was. Only a handful of fictional icons – Conan of Cimmeria, Tarzan of the apes, Dorothy of Kansas, James Bond, Alice of Wonderland – have attained the kind of immortal status enjoyed by Count Dracula.

I’ve often speculated about the reasons why the myth of the vampire, as Stoker formalized it, endured for so long and through so many permutations.

I think we all recognize a part of ourselves in the vampire.

A False Sense of Estrangement

The vampire myth illustrates the darker aspects of our estrangement from Source; it mirrors the natural consequences of believing that the world is the source of our life rather than our consciousness being the source of the world.

Our cultural values and convictions teach us to ‘feed on’ each other in so many ways.

In a world where human beings realize that they create their own reality, vampires and demons cannot exist. Their prominence in myth, folklore, movies, novels, comics and television is indicative of some of the deep-seated beliefs that we hold about our world and about human nature.

Without understanding the power of creation, without feeling a connection to source, we’ll continue to recognize a part of ourselves in the vampire. Thus Count Dracula continues to be slain and yet he always returns.

The Road Back to True Source

A core theme that runs throughout the entire Edge of the Known series is the realization that we create our own reality. The story is told from the point of view of a young man who has, thus far, “lived by the sword” and seems likely to meet his demise in the same way.

His soul-guide and mentor, Saul, slowly teaches Brandon to trace his life experiences – both his successes and defeats, his joys and sufferings – back to their true origins within him.

This is the road that leads away from a psychic-vampire stance before the world and towards the recognition of our true power. The sources of abundance lie within us, not “out there” where we must try to grasp them at someone else’s expense.

The Notion of Spiritual Home

Many spiritual teachings speak of “coming Home”. Oftentimes people think of Home as the place that souls ‘come from’ when they incarnate in this physical world; and they long for it as the place to which it will return when this life is ‘over’.

I do believe that we all know, at heart, where we belong; what our (self-chosen) destiny is, and what directions we need to move in the fulfill it.

And this sense of belonging encompasses a lot of things: Why we came here; what our real gifts are; the recognition of people who we’ve known, and have shared the journey with before; the reason for – and meaning of – our suffering, etc.

There can be sadness born of knowing this ‘promised land’ that we might think of as our spiritual home, and fear born of knowing – or intuiting, at least – how far we may have to travel to return to it.

The All-Knowing Center of Being

There’s a living, conscious and very wise place inside each of us that preserves the essence of our real nature so that it’s never lost, no matter how far afield we may run with our illusions, faulty beliefs, reactions and destructive behavior.

This is our essence, and it lends emotional weight to the idea of spiritual home to those of us who sense its presence within.

It’s that quiet but steady voice that’s there with us after a bout of crying, or a confrontation with deep fear – a run-in with mortality and/or grief, when all is strangely clear and perfectly in place. These spaces merely wait for us to feel the pain within our missteps and then turn around and walk back towards home.

This is the root of what I call sanity. The structures of this world may all resonate with it to some extent or another. Nothing is really corrupt, because everything is a reflection of our process of becoming.

A Personal Journey Without End

But these structures – whether they’re political, religious, scientific, ethical, etc. – cannot point the way home for any individual. This is always a personal quest; and in the end, ultimately, “sanity” means “having come home”.

Throughout The Edge of the Known saga, Brandon’s spiritual mentor Saul challenges his notions of ‘completion’, of the idea of perfection that lies at the heart of his thoughts of ‘spiritual home’. When are we ever finished? he asks. When comes that elusive ‘payoff moment’ when our growth and unfolding is all said and done?

I once wrote in a poem that I dedicated to me teen-aged self, “If you’d really known what the journey meant then I doubt you could’ve made the first steps.”

Ignorance spared me, in that sense. With the ‘blinders’ – the artificial divisions that our minds create between ‘past’ and ‘future’ in the Eternal Now – in place, I didn’t need the courage to shoulder decades of healing and spiritual striving. I only ever needed enough courage for ‘today’.

In the Eternal Now, that is all that is required of us; and our spiritual home is wherever we may be, at any point along our endless and most indescribably sacred path.

Stories of Heroism and Our Inner Greatness

Many superheroes have enjoyed a surge of popularity in the world of film. There’s a reason why movies like this are so popular. They fill the same inner need that has often been satisfied by pulp magazines, comic books, graphic novels and epic fantasies. These stories of heroism mirror our own (oft-times unacknowledged) inner greatness.

Heroic epics dramatize the aspects of our own personal reality and identity that we’ve learned not to believe in.

The superhero typically has a meek and unassuming alter-ego because he or she is living out our unacknowledged reality. Our ‘secret identity’ is that of the hero.

The Suppression of Human Heroism

There’s little place for real heroism within a world-view that is painted by scientific concepts like accidental creation and dead matter or in the idea that consciousness and life itself are meaningless accidents.

Our culture, by and large, has a lot of its priorities in the wrong places; it keeps our energies consumed in petty frustrations and toils so that we remain fairly oblivious to the larger entities and movements of life.

When we’re faced with dramatic upheavals of one kind or another we have an opportunity to feel our inner heroism and wisdom, our primal kinship with nature, and our deeper bonds with each other.

Why is Story so Crucial?

Everything that we human beings use to structure our lives – to give life form, and orient ourselves – is a story: A mythology. Science is a myth, replete with its own invented language to convey it; Christianity too.

To me, the way in which a story inspires us is a much more crucial issue than the question of whether or not it is “true”. Many of our civilization’s most popular stories have inspired depression, fear, confusion, apathy, low expectations and an overall sense of diminished hopes.

We invented these stories, and we can re-invent or discard them. We can invent new ones that honor our capacity for heroism and our inner greatness.

Heroism on Micro and Macro Levels

There are probably few experiences so empowering as the realization that one’s life story can be completely re-written. This can also apply to a culture and even to the world entire.

In this physical life we encounter the limitations that we believe in. Many parts of the modern world are in crisis now because they’re seeing the mass-scale reflection of what many of us believe life is worth.

By and large, humanity has accepted the idea that it is a flawed and accidental creation; and so how are we to believe ourselves capable of greatness?

We are seeing the world picture that we have been describing to ourselves for generations through our most “cherished” myths.

If our life experience expands or contracts according to the stories that we cling to about it then the Great Quest becomes a matter of choosing those stories with greater care. We must choose our beliefs wisely, because we’ll meet with them in the world.

Can we will learn to trust ourselves enough to create our own myths, to reinvent the Gods?

Stepping Into Heroism

In the books that comprise The Edge of the Known saga, my protagonist, Brandon Chane, is on a quest to rediscover his personal heroism. He just doesn’t realize it, at the onset. He is driven by an inner need, the powerful soul intent, to find his voice and to use it to function as a communicator not only within his personal world but also the wider community.

That voice has long been stifled by the abuse of his upbringing, the hostility of his surrounding environment and his own limiting beliefs, which have convinced him that there is no real place for him in the world. Confronting these beliefs, with the help of his mystic mentor Saul, becomes the essence of his heroic quest.

This is a journey that many of us must move through if we’re to make our best possible contribution to the troubles that beset our embattled world.

Patience Along the Inner Way


Patience is crucial along the inner way not only because this inner reality requires time to manifest in physical terms but also because the very essence of patience is an expression of trust in the process.

Without it, our ego selves are too easily tempted to want to grab the reins and try to ‘make it all happen’. What the conscious mind is responsible for is becoming aware of its own contents, of knowing the picture that it is painting on the inside. The manifestation of that picture in terms of the life that we experience remains in the hands of the deeper portions of ourselves.

The Role of the Will

As my fictional medicine man Saul Mason puts it, in Trust in the Unseen , “You insist on seeing around the bend, even though you have no idea how a shift in belief may alter the picture of your whole world.”

One of the biggest influences on my overall thought, philosophy and daily ‘spiritual practice’, for lack of a better term, is the body of Seth Material written/channeled by Jane Roberts. ‘Seth’ reminds us, again and again, that we create our personal reality through our thoughts, feelings and beliefs.

But he also mentions, many times, that we are not aware of the unconscious mechanisms through which our inner reality materializes into the world that we know.

Trust and Letting Go

What this means is that we’re responsible for what we project, but that becoming attached to any ideas of the particular ways in which our conscious objectives must be accomplished will be self-defeating.

Our patience, then, expresses itself in a delicate dance that involves stating our intentions clearly and then letting go of the outcome.

When we’re working with our own beliefs, we act in trust that as they change, so will our outward experience. But that latter part of the process is achieved unconsciously. Patience becomes difficult to practice when we have too-rigid ideas of the ways in which the new results will materialize.

Easing Our Minds

The only way to really set the mind at ease during this process is for it to become more aware of itself. When we come to know our inner lives more thoroughly then we realize that we are never “doing it all alone”, that our breakthroughs are not accomplished merely through effort of will.

Knowing that the inner self is responsive to our conscious thought, we need only be aware of the messages that we’re giving it. We remain aware of the picture of ourselves and the nature of reality that we give it, pruning out those beliefs that are ‘marring’ the picture away from the image we want.

Then we can leave the nitty gritty of manifestation in the hands of the inner portions of our being.

It’s a Declaration of Belief

Patience and trust go hand in hand along the inner way, then. Or, patience becomes less of a struggle the more we become aware that this inner self is always working on our behalf.

If it doesn’t seem to, it is only because we’re not aware, in one area or another, of our actual beliefs. We’re giving the inner self directives without really paying attention to what we’re telling it.

As we learn to draw clear correlations between our outer world experiences and the inner beliefs that gave birth to them, it grounds us in a sense of our own power. From this place, patience and trust come a lot more easily.

The Path of Shamanic Initiation

Shamanic initiation often begins with some circumstance that essentially signifies an inability on the part of a would-be shaman to ‘lead a normal life’ – whatever that might mean in the context of the society that s/he lives in.

Sometimes this ‘inability’ manifests as a severe illness; then, the process of initiation would involve self-healing of the malady, a regaining of equilibrium. This can also happen through grappling with what Western minds would term mental illnesses.

Separation and Turning Inward

The identification with the animal world, also, which is such a distinctive motif in shamanic lore,  relates to the ways in which a prospective medicine man separates from the human community during the time of initiation.

Animal consciousness brings us into the heart of nature – and, in the process, draws us away from the belief systems and customs of the culture that we’ve thus far been living in.

The vision must be reached in this way, through separation from the human community for a time, because the healing that the shaman is eventually able to offer involves those aspects of consciousness that the community lacks, and longs for.

Refusing the Initiatory Moment

Some are unwilling to embark upon the path of shamanism in the first place, even though their souls clamor for it – a motif that’s also echoed in Joseph Campbell’s exploration of The Hero’s Journey: the refusal of the Call.

In Fire Thief Reborn (the fourth volume in The Edge of the Known series), narrator Brandon Chane describes his own personal experience with this initiatory moment. He is not aware, at the time, that this is what he is in fact undergoing.

He had believed that he could simply renounce music and lead something akin to a “normal life”, not realizing (or refusing to acknowledge) his own innate need for contact with the spirit world and to serve as a kind of mediator between that world and the one that most of us call “the real”.

This denial has created a troubling circumstance for him: He seems to have attained all the things that he thought would confer normal human happiness, and yet his spirit is restless and dissatisfied.

And as the music began to vibrate over the grass and through the heads of all of us, I was reminded again of the peculiar pain that accompanies the too-full moment. It is that aching inside that you can’t quite reach and massage with your mental fingers; the sense that your poignant love of the world, fragile though it seems, is too big to be contained within your breast.

It has to spill over, like flood waters surmounting the tops of sluice gates, so you siphon it through your songs or poems or stories, knowing that this release is only momentary. And not only that, but the very vehicle that you’ve chosen to express it then turns around and whets the sharp edge of your sensitivity so that you seem to need that release again, more than ever. 

Those Who Are Born For It…

Typically, the shamanic vocation could not be faked. Nor can one simply deny it. A shaman’s reputation rests upon his or her ability to heal, to ‘do good works’; to provide evidence of power and spiritual discernment.  The above passage describes a moment in which Brandon is beginning to realize that his attempted ‘refusal’ has failed him. In order to find the true happiness and spiritual equilibrium that has thus far eluded him, he must step into his own power more fully: Accept, and respond to, his Call.

Written in Fire

{Recited over the dance of flames, the lyrics to a song featured in the third book of The Edge of the Known series. Brandon Chane gave the song the title “Damp Kindling”.}


It was all writ in


but the ashes

obscure the runes

and yet they nourish the

next life-cycle of

lilies over

the tombs


The air is

inspiration; but the

breath is

quickly spent

and can’t convey

the throat’s hoarse

cry, nor

what the singer meant


I’ve sought wisdom in

the flames

but now my pyre

burns too slow


Life, you’ve got to

open your arms

or else just

let me go