Patience Along the Inner Way

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Patience is crucial along the inner way not only because this inner reality requires time to manifest in physical terms but also because the very essence of patience is an expression of trust in the process.

Without it, our ego selves are too easily tempted to want to grab the reins and try to ‘make it all happen’. What the conscious mind is responsible for is becoming aware of its own contents, of knowing the picture that it is painting on the inside. The manifestation of that picture in terms of the life that we experience remains in the hands of the deeper portions of ourselves.

The Role of the Will

As my fictional medicine man Saul Mason puts it, in Trust in the Unseen , “You insist on seeing around the bend, even though you have no idea how a shift in belief may alter the picture of your whole world.”

One of the biggest influences on my overall thought, philosophy and daily ‘spiritual practice’, for lack of a better term, is the body of Seth Material written/channeled by Jane Roberts. ‘Seth’ reminds us, again and again, that we create our personal reality through our thoughts, feelings and beliefs.

But he also mentions, many times, that we are not aware of the unconscious mechanisms through which our inner reality materializes into the world that we know.

Trust and Letting Go

What this means is that we’re responsible for what we project, but that becoming attached to any ideas of the particular ways in which our conscious objectives must be accomplished will be self-defeating.

Our patience, then, expresses itself in a delicate dance that involves stating our intentions clearly and then letting go of the outcome.

When we’re working with our own beliefs, we act in trust that as they change, so will our outward experience. But that latter part of the process is achieved unconsciously. Patience becomes difficult to practice when we have too-rigid ideas of the ways in which the new results will materialize.

Easing Our Minds

The only way to really set the mind at ease during this process is for it to become more aware of itself. When we come to know our inner lives more thoroughly then we realize that we are never “doing it all alone”, that our breakthroughs are not accomplished merely through effort of will.

Knowing that the inner self is responsive to our conscious thought, we need only be aware of the messages that we’re giving it. We remain aware of the picture of ourselves and the nature of reality that we give it, pruning out those beliefs that are ‘marring’ the picture away from the image we want.

Then we can leave the nitty gritty of manifestation in the hands of the inner portions of our being.

It’s a Declaration of Belief

Patience and trust go hand in hand along the inner way, then. Or, patience becomes less of a struggle the more we become aware that this inner self is always working on our behalf.

If it doesn’t seem to, it is only because we’re not aware, in one area or another, of our actual beliefs. We’re giving the inner self directives without really paying attention to what we’re telling it.

As we learn to draw clear correlations between our outer world experiences and the inner beliefs that gave birth to them, it grounds us in a sense of our own power. From this place, patience and trust come a lot more easily.

Messages from the Unconscious (Our Inner Radio Tower)

The messages that we receive from our unconscious can be trusted and followed because they arise from a place within us that is much more far-seeing than our waking minds.

I once dreamed that my son and I were exploring a big city, maybe Philadelphia or New York. We were somehow on a high vantage point, because I was looking at even the tallest towers and buildings from above. I wanted to send a message to a woman who was somewhere out there in that vast sea of lights.

I held a long, thick cord of iron. I had the idea that I could wrap it around the statue that’s atop the tallest building to secure it, drape it down from there, and thereby transform the structure into a radio tower – much like those old radio kits where you could get reception using nothing more than copper wire coiled around a cardboard tube. I hoped in this way to be able to send my message.

Communications Between the Inner and Outer Worlds

Shortly after I had this dream I was reading from one of Jane Robert’s ‘Seth’ books, The Individual and the Nature of Mass Events, about the (really unfathomable) network of connections that the unconscious inner self sits at the heart of.

These myriad exchanges (the likes of which would boggle our rational minds) keep us so perfectly poised as we are in space and time – a feat that involves miraculous communications and cooperation between even the very atoms and molecules.

Basically, the unconscious portion of the self is aware of all of the movements of the manifest world, from massive historic world events to the deaths and births of the slightest cells. It is attuned to every part of physical reality, and also serves as a bridge between that reality and the underlying, inner source of everything.

Messages with Practical Applications

I must have been somehow presciently aware of this material, because a few months back, in the heart of a difficult and seemingly-never-ending winter, I decided that the movements of the world in this age, and my own place in the midst of it all, was beyond anything that I could logically grapple with.

I was often in a state of fear, abetted by many factors, The picture of the modern world looked precarious and hopeless.

I began giving my concerns over to my unconscious inner self every night before I went to bed. I’d just acknowledge, “this is beyond me” – ‘me’ being my surface-attuned ego self, my conscious identity – and ask for guidance.

I was intuiting what I would later read about in Jane Roberts’ book: That the inner wellspring from which my dreams spring is not unconscious but actually supremely consciousaware of the larger entities of life and the world situation in a way that my reasoning mind could never hope to keep up with. I decided to put my trust in that, as fully as possible.

Dream Guidance

One of the first dreams that I received after beginning this “ritual” took place in the house I grew up in. I was looking out the window in the stairwell room. There was a lizard climbing up the glass.

I don’t remember the actual name of this species, but (and I’m relating this in the “real life world of facts”, now) it possesses a defense mechanism whereby, when a predator is near, it puffs itself up to appear twice its normal size and fans its head-crest out. It puts on a fearsome display – which is all show, as it has no venom and its bite is harmless.

The lizard in my dream carried out a similar charade of mock-ferociousness, at one point expanding to the extent that it covered the entire window.

Even while I was dreaming I got the point of this motif: My unconscious self was assuring me that my fears were a bunch of hot air, blown out of all proportion, and should be seen as such.

This deepened my sense that I was on the right path with this, putting my faith in the messages from within and having the humility to admit that sometimes my waking brain can’t grapple with all of the factors that are in play beneath the surface of any given event, whether it’s personal or worldly.