Patience Along the Inner Way


Patience is crucial along the inner way not only because this inner reality requires time to manifest in physical terms but also because the very essence of patience is an expression of trust in the process.

Without it, our ego selves are too easily tempted to want to grab the reins and try to ‘make it all happen’. What the conscious mind is responsible for is becoming aware of its own contents, of knowing the picture that it is painting on the inside. The manifestation of that picture in terms of the life that we experience remains in the hands of the deeper portions of ourselves.

The Role of the Will

As my fictional medicine man Saul Mason puts it, in Trust in the Unseen , “You insist on seeing around the bend, even though you have no idea how a shift in belief may alter the picture of your whole world.”

One of the biggest influences on my overall thought, philosophy and daily ‘spiritual practice’, for lack of a better term, is the body of Seth Material written/channeled by Jane Roberts. ‘Seth’ reminds us, again and again, that we create our personal reality through our thoughts, feelings and beliefs.

But he also mentions, many times, that we are not aware of the unconscious mechanisms through which our inner reality materializes into the world that we know.

Trust and Letting Go

What this means is that we’re responsible for what we project, but that becoming attached to any ideas of the particular ways in which our conscious objectives must be accomplished will be self-defeating.

Our patience, then, expresses itself in a delicate dance that involves stating our intentions clearly and then letting go of the outcome.

When we’re working with our own beliefs, we act in trust that as they change, so will our outward experience. But that latter part of the process is achieved unconsciously. Patience becomes difficult to practice when we have too-rigid ideas of the ways in which the new results will materialize.

Easing Our Minds

The only way to really set the mind at ease during this process is for it to become more aware of itself. When we come to know our inner lives more thoroughly then we realize that we are never “doing it all alone”, that our breakthroughs are not accomplished merely through effort of will.

Knowing that the inner self is responsive to our conscious thought, we need only be aware of the messages that we’re giving it. We remain aware of the picture of ourselves and the nature of reality that we give it, pruning out those beliefs that are ‘marring’ the picture away from the image we want.

Then we can leave the nitty gritty of manifestation in the hands of the inner portions of our being.

It’s a Declaration of Belief

Patience and trust go hand in hand along the inner way, then. Or, patience becomes less of a struggle the more we become aware that this inner self is always working on our behalf.

If it doesn’t seem to, it is only because we’re not aware, in one area or another, of our actual beliefs. We’re giving the inner self directives without really paying attention to what we’re telling it.

As we learn to draw clear correlations between our outer world experiences and the inner beliefs that gave birth to them, it grounds us in a sense of our own power. From this place, patience and trust come a lot more easily.

The Inner World of the Unconscious: Source of ‘Miracles’

The abundance that may come into our lives, and the seeming miracles and unforeseen solutions, have their source in the inner world of the unconscious.

About five years ago I had a dream that explored the reality of miracles. A family had made a deal with the mafia, and because of this they had to convert a certain ramshackle warehouse space into a restaurant by Christmas morning.

The place was still a complete mess; the appointed time was fast approaching, and they’d already received threats.

As they were walking home on a snowy Christmas eve the mother says, without much hope, “We have to be open for business in the morning.”

When they got to the warehouse, Santa Claus landed on the roof in his sleigh, and I realized (as the silent onlooker in the dream drama) that he and his elves had arrived to convert the space overnight.

Support from the Inner World

I was reminded at once of the “thousand unseen helping hands” that mythologist Joseph Campbell talked about; the supernatural aid that shows up so often in the old myths and fairy tales.

The world that we know arises (or manifests) from the same place. I use the present tense because its creation is not finished: it is happening in this moment. This contradicts most of the popular religious and scientific stories regarding our origins.

Most of us have been touched by the miracles of this source at least a few times in our lives, but such incidents often go unrecognized because we learn not to be aware of them. We’re taught to believe in a mechanical universe – one without inner meaning or significance – and when we accept that view of reality we start disbelieving in miracles.

Dream Reminders

The two ideas cannot coexist. Every night our dreams appeal to us, trying to remind us of the magic and wonder that is the real source of our being. They try to get us to trust that inner unconscious source.

This takes some doing, as it goes against the grain of virtually all of the other assumptions about reality that we’re confronted with from a very young age. This is part of what makes inner work an ongoing process: So many old and limiting beliefs have to be dissolved in order to create space in our minds for new revelations and insights.

Ultimately, the inner world, accessible through our dreams, intuitions and even our waking fantasies, can show us how to seed our hopes and desires upon our inner landscape so that these things can come to fruition in our outer lives. We can be in communication with the inner source of abundance.

It is a part of us and we are a part of it.

In the novel Trust in the Unseen, narrator Brandon Chane at one point reveals how he and his bandmates were inspired with that particular title (which they bequeathed upon their second record):

Well, all the shared enthusiasm that’d been stirred up at the rehearsal spilled over into new conversations, which eventually resulted in a final title change for our mini-album. Tommy initiated the process, speculating about all the coincidences in our lives that are really too uncanny to even be called coincidences.

Then I voiced an idea that Saul had put forth to me, one that I’d now struggled for a couple of years to try and accept: Our experiences don’t actually come to us from the world at all but are really woven from within us. Consciousness comes first, in all things. The world as it is perceived is essentially a mirror for the inner state of the perceiver.