Many spiritual teachings speak of “coming Home”. Oftentimes people think of Home as the place that souls ‘come from’ when they incarnate in this physical world; and they long for it as the place to which it will return when this life is ‘over’.
I do believe that we all know, at heart, where we belong; what our (self-chosen) destiny is, and what directions we need to move in the fulfill it.
And this sense of belonging encompasses a lot of things: Why we came here; what our real gifts are; the recognition of people who we’ve known, and have shared the journey with before; the reason for – and meaning of – our suffering, etc.
There can be sadness born of knowing this ‘promised land’ that we might think of as our spiritual home, and fear born of knowing – or intuiting, at least – how far we may have to travel to return to it.
The All-Knowing Center of Being
There’s a living, conscious and very wise place inside each of us that preserves the essence of our real nature so that it’s never lost, no matter how far afield we may run with our illusions, faulty beliefs, reactions and destructive behavior.
This is our essence, and it lends emotional weight to the idea of spiritual home to those of us who sense its presence within.
It’s that quiet but steady voice that’s there with us after a bout of crying, or a confrontation with deep fear – a run-in with mortality and/or grief, when all is strangely clear and perfectly in place. These spaces merely wait for us to feel the pain within our missteps and then turn around and walk back towards home.
This is the root of what I call sanity. The structures of this world may all resonate with it to some extent or another. Nothing is really corrupt, because everything is a reflection of our process of becoming.
A Personal Journey Without End
But these structures – whether they’re political, religious, scientific, ethical, etc. – cannot point the way home for any individual. This is always a personal quest; and in the end, ultimately, “sanity” means “having come home”.
Throughout The Edge of the Known saga, Brandon’s spiritual mentor Saul challenges his notions of ‘completion’, of the idea of perfection that lies at the heart of his thoughts of ‘spiritual home’. When are we ever finished? he asks. When comes that elusive ‘payoff moment’ when our growth and unfolding is all said and done?
I once wrote in a poem that I dedicated to me teen-aged self, “If you’d really known what the journey meant then I doubt you could’ve made the first steps.”
Ignorance spared me, in that sense. With the ‘blinders’ – the artificial divisions that our minds create between ‘past’ and ‘future’ in the Eternal Now – in place, I didn’t need the courage to shoulder decades of healing and spiritual striving. I only ever needed enough courage for ‘today’.
In the Eternal Now, that is all that is required of us; and our spiritual home is wherever we may be, at any point along our endless and most indescribably sacred path.